Choices

determine where we go, who we become, how we wouldview things in the future.

I could be in Indonesia on holiday. Instead I chose to be home, half dead with boredom for the past week. Sigh.
But well, family comes first. =) Birthdays and an engagement party. Pangkor this weekend. KL the next. And of course, friends who would only be back home for a week or so. I'd miss out on the opportunity to catch up if I chose the former.

Have fun in Surabaya & Malang guys!

What's on the Menu?

I had possibly the weirdest lunch I have ever, and will ever have.

• 1 piece of Instant Roti Canai
• 1/2 scoop of Tiramisu ice cream
• 1 mini bar of Vault (sort of like a Mars bar)

Let's hope I won't be best friends with the toilet bowl in about 3-6 hours.... ;)

Of spilling wardrobes and chinese herbs

Every semester break, the one thing I have to deal with is to de-clutter my wardrobe. I have too many clothes for my own good. =( But it's not that I buy excessively, it's more like I have a wonderfully cekap cousin sister whom loves to pass on clothes to me. (Not that I'm complaining 'coz most of the clothes are super pretty & have hardly been worn before!) Unfortunately, I've always been the type of person who finds it hard to throw/part with my stuff, be it books, clothes, or useless little things I've collected to remind me of whatever events I've been through in my life...

How can anyone NOT want new things when they're as cute as this...

This is only one of the things mommy got me from her trip to Bangkok. =)

 So there is the basis of my dilemma. I want new things but I DON'T want to give away the old things to make space for the new ones. The resulting consequence? A super messy room. Hehehe.

I NEED TO CLEAN MY ROOM!!! (but I'm still wondering how I'm going to create more space)

On another note, grandma took a fall a few days ago and fractured her foot and knocked her head. Ouch. And she's afraid of plastering her foot so it's chinese traditional medicine for her. Hmmm. I must say I'm rather skeptical about the effectiveness of externally applied herbs to heal bones... But what can I say to the many people who placed their full confidence in it. When we went to the place, I was really surprised to see a constant stream of people there. Guess I'll find out how well those herbs work in a few weeks...

Gmail's Ninja Theme

is the cutest thing ever!
If you don't have gmail, or if you're still using their basic theme, hurry and go check out the other options they have in store.. I can't deny like all things cute and adorable, so naturally I go for those. But there're some other nature themes, and more serious + professional looking themes too (for those of you who need to be macho and classy). My only gripe is that there's not enough. Hehehehe. Greedy, I know.

For some themes, the wallpaper changes randomly within each theme. Check these few examples out. So adorable! Always adds to my eagerness to check my mail. ;)

 

 

Go get gmail now! ;)

Never a dull moment in the Land below the wind..

Lots of weird stuff has been documented this week. Well, okay. Maybe not LOTS. More like um, three.

Incident 1

Decided to do the laundry yesterday, but right after popping the clothes into the washing machine, the clouds made their dramatic appearance out of nowhere and the skies turned a gloomy gray. Sigh. Too late, since the machine was already well into it's 2nd cycle. =(

So I said a prayer. Or two. Or three. (Guess I was pretty desperate for my clothes to dry lah) And it was really amazing how God geld back the rain for that few hours, and even punctured little holes in the thick cloud formation for the sun to shine through. =D

God is super awesome!

Wanted to take pictures of the sky but my camera's not quite cekap enough to capture its beauty. Didn't quite do the sky justice... Guess some things, you just need to see for yourself. ;)

Incident 2

First ever dog with eyebrows and eyeshadow spotted. 

 

 Saw this on my way back from church. Did a double take when I saw those eyebrows. Then it took me 10 whole seconds to realise I've never in my life seen a dog with eyebrows. This one even had eyeshadow on! (Look closely ya...)

Incident 3

Next up, I spotted a giraffe taking a piggy-back ride on a dog. 

 

Hahahahaha!!

=P

Addictions

My previous post ended on a hopeful note on me finally going to study but....

Nope. Guess not. (I only managed to bring my notes out but before I could even start studying, I got distracted again. Sigh.)

Am super addicted to a few things, none of which are very academic-related. I am a lousy student. (Somebody PLEASE remind me of this when I start to consider post-graduate studies.)
My guilty pleasures include:

1. reading (but nothing even remotely academic in nature)
2. Facebook-ing
3. Pet Society
4. Farm Frenzy Pizza Party, and a host of other addictive games e.g. Burger Shop and those hidden object games!
5. movies
6. blog surfing
   

 Macam mana mahu study?

One paper more...

and as usual, it's the hardest to study for.
Not because it's tough compared to the other subjects but because I'm already mentally in FREEDOM-LAND. =P

It doesn't help that:

• there was an entire SEVEN day break between this paper and the last.
• I am a lazy, lazy pig who's been sleeping till 11am for the past few mornings.
• it is in fact, a terrible paper to study for, because of  reasons I cannot disclose in case this post falls into the wrong hands. 

However, I also know that:

• if I DON'T study, I will regret it.
  

So, this post sort of helps put me into that much needed 'study mood'. Hahaha. Help me.. =]

Me = Floorball Goalie

It's just a one time experience lah. But wow.. Serious eye-opener.. Super cekap experience!
When I put the goalie helmet on, it felt like a whole new world!
Here are some pictures...

At the beginning, I was all hyped up... (But inside, I was super jelly-fied knees scared!) The other goalie in blue is Ann, my goalie ji-mui. Super cekap girl. And the guy at the back's Shawn - Nomad coach.

This is me being "attacked", but with lots of mercy from my attackers. Hehehe. With my 5 coaches constantly telling me how, when, where to stop those tiny lil white balls from getting pass me.

Me, every time I let a ball in. (which was pretty often. hehehe!)

To read more, check this out.

Finals!!!

A total of 4 papers in a span of 32 hours.
And only 1 day, 6 hours and 22 minutes more to go.



Arghhh!

Mangifera spp. seeds

are my latest nighmare. Hahaha.
Coz that's the 'star' of my group's Scientific Writing course's assignment.
So for the past few weeks, life's been full of Mangifera pajang, Mangifera indica L, Mangifera this, Mangifera that. Extraction method this, extraction method that. Phew!

Mangifera indica L. (the common mango) and Mangifera pajang (bambangan)

But truly, I've learnt a LOT from this one assignment. Though it's a real pity it wasn't at a more appropriate time of the semester. Sigh. Now everyone's going crazy trying to juggle studying for finals, compiling the Post Harvest assignment, this one, and whatever other commitments they may have. The life of an SSMP student.

In fact, just the other day, a friend went to make a pair of new spectacles. Yay! Shopping! Sad to say, though a few shops were alright, most of the shops had really poor service. =( The last shop we entered was the best! Great sales rep. Scarily, she somehow mentioned that many SSMP students have been to the shop lately. All needing help to see better.

Are we all really staring at our laptops/reading journals/releasing stress by playing computer games so hard?

The most expensive lesson I've learnt, so far...

I will NOT ever reverse a car without looking into the rear-view mirror again.
I will NOT ever reverse a car without looking into the rear-view mirror again.
I will NOT ever reverse a car without looking into the rear-view mirror again.

Hmm. I think I'll spare myself the next 47 lines. =P But know that I did NOT copy & paste the previous 3 ok???

I smacked right into my neighbour's Wira with Eeleen's Viva. Sigh. All because I was in a rush, and I assumed that there wasn't any car blocking me when I turned. And my neighbour assumed that the person reversing the car from his neighbour's place would look properly before stepping on the accelerate pedal.
I guess to ASSUME really makes an ASS of U and ME.

And the damages are costing me a nice hefty sum... =] But like a friend said, accidents make people better drivers. Not too sure if that's true but I'm optimistic that I've learnt from this one lesson. =) It would be a super huge waste of money if I didn't. Hahaha.
And praise God I smashed into an empty car coz if there were any casualties........ GULP!

Toilet Bowls

are probably one of the most essential household items in my life. And for the past one month, the one I frequent the most has been on strike. FINALLY, Mr Landlord came to fix it today and everything's A-Ok once again!
YAY!
Can't wait to feel that satisfaction one gets when one flushes the toilet handle and everything inside swirls away into the-place-I-never-want-to-visit..

So in line with today's theme, here're some really interesting toilet bowls! =)

This is a $75, 000 Swarovski crystals studded toilet bowl. Phew! Who could bear to sh*t on so much money?!

 

Hmm, for all those couples out there who can't bear to leave each other even for the 3 minutes it takes to do your little-business, this is for you!! (but definitely not for me...)

And lastly, toilet bowl lipgloss anyone? =P

But on a more serious note, I came across this page on the dangers of squatting ON toilet bowls. (I'm talking about squatting on those that are made for us to SIT ON.) It really freaked me out when I saw the gruesome pictures when a toilet bowl broke from the weight of someone squatting ON it.

So please ladies (and gentlemen), appreciate your toilet bowls before they um, stop flushing or start eating you up.

Ms Wireless and Mr Internet

I used to think that the INTERNET was no big deal. I mean, I lived without it for 2 decades right? So when my lil lappie's MS Wireless' hardware broke down, I was sad for sure. But I didn't realise just how big an  impact the absence of dear ol' Mr Internet would cause... Here's a tale of dear Ms Wireless and Mr Internet.

Ms Wireless and Mr Internet

You see, there wouldn't be a story if in the beginning, a certain Mr Internet wasn't so elusive. Only through a few particular means can we humans meet this very knowledgeable, wise but sometimes unpredictable character. He's a source of knowledge for so many. The only problem is, he can only be found in the presence of dear Ms Wireless.

About a month ago, right before mid-terms. We had just finished rushing a particularly headache-fying assignment on the canning of chicken curry. That was when Ms Wireless decided to 'mogok' and run away. (That's her "I Don't Wanna Be Your Friend Anymore" pose on the right.) I was really down, but only momentarily. It was after all exam season. I took it as a SIGN from God to quit Pet Society-ing and start book-ing. So I did. Sort of. Hahaha. Or at least more than I would have if Ms Wireless was still on good terms with me. =) I still constantly checked to see if Ms Wireless decided to come back but I was always greeted with the same hollow emptiness when I knocked on her door.

Then the rush of exams ended and I turned my lil baby lappie on. Lo and behold! Ms Wireless returned! It all seemed so surreal... It was truly as if God decided I could have some R&R after all the stress. YAY! I was so happy, I forgot to ask her why she left in the first place.

But nothing lasts forever. After 2 days of exhilaration with Ms Wireless and her good friend Mr Internet, she left again. Like before, there was no indication as to why she left. I never even got a chance to say goodbye. No more Ms Wireless and Mr Internet.

So there I was, living life without the two very important non-living personas in a student's life. =(  Though I had glimpses of them once in awhile through the lappie of Eeleen. (THANK YOU EELEEN!!!) but it was just never the same. It's like, having a puppy in your own home versus playing with your neighbour's one.

So I finally brought my lappie to a doctor and after 3 excrutiating lappie-less days, the doctor said it was too late. There was nothing she could do. It turns out all this while, Ms Wireless was gravely ill and now she's gone to tech heaven. 

Rest in peace Ms Wireless. 

So today, I searched far and wide before I finally found a Ms Wireless Receiver who also had Mr Internet's number! Hooray!

THE END

Special thanks to:

God in Heaven

Eeleen

Ms Technician @ Lappie doctor

Mr creator of the internet

Mr creator of the wireless receiver

Red Alert! Lappie Down!

"What?", you ask?

You heard right. No Internet for me 'coz my dear little laptop's not feeling well.
Her wireless hardware has um, broken loose? fried itself? ran away? I don't know. And neither do the 2 techies I've brought her to. =(

They asked me to bring her to a professional but that's probably going to take over 2 days! How would she survive a night without me?!! Sigh. But it is for her own good. And for mine. I'm DYING without PS... Hehehe!

So yeah, total silence for me in cyber world until my lappie sees the doctor. Thank God E said I could use her lappie whenever. =D

PS = Pet society

I Only Did What I Though Was Best...

and the next thing I knew,
PLOP...

A Real Adventure!

All my life I've only spoken of & dreamed of doing things that I see on TV:

• Bungee jumping
• Sphereing/globe-riding/zorbing
• Para-sailing
• Sky diving
• Jungle trekking
  
• Exploring caves (Oh wait. I've done that one. Gua Tempurung's cekap Tour 4. Must try!)

But well, since I came to Sabah, I must admit that I haven't been through half of what most of my friends have experienced. So, I finally did something super amazing...

White water rafting!!!

Even after hearing scary comments about people drowning and dying from hitting some rocks, I knew I just had to try this at least once. (And also the fact that all my friends who's been there made it back alive-lah)

Even the journey to Padas river was amazing. We took a 2++ hour bus ride, followed by a train ride on one of the most ancient steam engines ever! We started 'conquering' the river around 1 but praise God it wasn't a very sunny day. It even rained half-way through. (Knew I should have worn my contacts) There were hilarious moments e.g. when we were having our raft battles with other rafts. And then therewere plain scary times when it felt like we were all gonna 'lose' to the river's rapids. But our raft's guide - Misol was just this really calm and fantastic dude with an amazing voice, an admirable knowledge of the river, and a penchant for pushing people, especially yours truly, off the raft. Only when we were at calm waters of course, no worries. I did NOT almost die. =) Thank God I didn't end up as another statistic on the 2009 Padas river casualties.

The intensity of the rapids were varied with some level 3's and level 2's along with way way too much of calm waters where we trained our biceps and triceps during paddling. (Note: to any physically not-so-active-girls who want to try this, either go during rainy season to reduce paddling, or share your raft with 6 other strong, valiant guys with big biceps and are willing to endure your screaming). We paddled what seemed like a never ending length of Padas river but which was in fact only about 19km with a break in between for a yummy buffet lunch. But perhaps we were all just so tired already that a break and ANY food would seem like a 5-star gourmet meal. :p But to do the food some justice, it really was finger-licking. =) Except the mee-hoon.

The final 9km after lunch was especially excrutiating for me, what with a full tummy and well, I guess the note in the previous paragraph was actually meant for me. My raft had 4 guys albeit not so muscly ones, and 3 girls including myself. Eeleen did just fine with her being so fit and all. But KS and I took turns with the workload. It was a great team though. With about 20 hands reaching out for each other every time the water got a little rough and the cekap singing sessions during the endless paddling. It was hilarious how the singing automatically transforms into screaming when we reach the rapids. It goes something like "It's a love story, baby just say ye-argh!!!!"

For pictures and more accurate details, please refer to my dear friend and raft-mate Eeleen's blog. I can't be bothered to load all those pictures, even if they're only pictures about one of the most cekap things I've been through. :p I actually do think I might go experience it again, some time when it's raining cats and dogs, making the water level much higher and thus giving the rapids a more dangerous feel... And increasing chances of the raft capsizing! =D

Here's ONE picture for my very long, rambling-fied post.

Notice how the people in front are screaming? That's because they can see how terrifying it is. But I say why worry right? I'm at the back trying to look for fish in the water.. ;)

See you again some day Padas!

And now, for some advertising: check out http://www.borneoultimate.com.my/2009/?tag=padas-rafting

Twenty two

It's been an interesting week.
Full of laughter and good times.
=)

Monday:
Birthday celebration makan at Hilltop together with the VIPs (the cat, dog and cockroach).
And of course the VVIPs, PC and me!

Tuesday:
Met up with my cousin Eta and R. =)

Wednesday:
Makan again at Sushi King although it was pouring with rain outside.

It's the company that really made my week. =)

Though I was falling sick, and in serious pain from my cramps,
you girls just made me smile and laugh until I forgot the pain and discomfort.
Hugs! Thanks girls!

Of wounds, blood, & trust

How often have we seen this particular scene on the screen:-

Boy meets Girl,
Boy gets a scratch on his knee (probably while trying to save Girl),
Boy & Girl finds a first aid box at his place/her place/some quiet playground and tends to his wound,
Boy looks at Girl in wonder at her gentleness (I'm just guessing though.. I'm actually not sure what a guy would think at this point),
Girl looks up, they lock eyes, and ta-dah!

They fall in love...

The real point behind this little story is to point out the trust Boy would need to have to allow Girl to tend to his wound. I mean, would you let a total stranger deal with your raw and extremely painful flesh? What if she screws up and forgets to clean your wound properly before bandaging it? That would probably lead to a very nasty infection and well, more pain on your part. =S

Of course it could just be that Boy was already super infatuated with Girl and hence would allow her to do practically anything to him.

But that aside, in reality I think you would find it pretty accurate if I made a general statement saying that you only allow people you trust to help you, in the more serious matters. Correct?

So when you do NOT allow someone to help you, it would have to be because you do not trust that person right?

That's what came to me one fine day when I was not allowed to help. =(

Breathing

Something many, many, many of us take for granted,
even though it is something so vital in our lives...

~Andrea Boydston~

Didn't really think about it much too, until I was forced forced myself to really push my limits when I went jogging for the past few days. I just can't seem to breathe properly while undergoing physical strain. =( My diaphragm would start hurting and then came the numbness in my hands. After awhile, I would begin to see little white lights. Next would probably be me sprawled unconscious on the ground but no, I didn't push that hard... =P

Honestly? I freaked out at first. Hahahaha. Wouldn't you?
It all started last saturday evening, during the Sutera Harbour organised 7km charity run. (which ended up as more of a 3 km run +4 km walk for me)
I was enlightened on the breathing thing by the ever caring E, who stayed by my side the whole time even though she must have probably been thinking "aiyo, so slow...". Sorry E! Anyways, she said she used to have breathing probs too. And it really slowed her down. Apparently, the trick was to control my breathing from the beginning, and not only when I was beginning to feel like I'd die of asphyxiation.
But hey, we made it! I made it through the entire 7000 metres of toe-torture! =D

Then the very next day, But then we were supposed to be jogging in a group around the lake and it got pretty obvious that I couldn't catch up. I finally told Shawn my hands were numb. And he said, "lower them awhile, let the blood flow." =)
Conclusion: My blood circulation's really bad.

So in a sudden fitness frenzy, E n I have been jogging (Well, E's doing most of the jogging. I just try hard to catch up) almost everyday. Maybe today's going to be an exception since it's getting dark and the blue-coloured lump is still fast asleep on the floor behind me. Hehehe.

Before signing off, (probably for another very long spell) here's a cekap quote related to breathing:

Breathing is the greatest pleasure in life.
~Giovanni Papini~

Muff-muffs

Muffins, muffins and more muffins.
Then there were the muff-kies (thanks to Haziq) and scone-fins. ;)

8 days of pure muffin baking and packaging was, for me:
-(as expected) repetitious
- insightful
- fun
- thought-provoking

Weird huh? Hahaha. I do know that I never want to end up working in a factory line. But I have also learnt that having the right attitude can make the most monotonous job a super enjoyable one.

I experienced that fatigue one gets when working your arse off at that time of the month. Guess I've always used it as an excuse to slack once every month. Haha. Tired was an understatement.

And boy, I think I got a glimpse of what Mel felt last year. It's not only the physical strain but also the mental pressure...
*Salutes* To everyone who's been in charge of any project involving a dateline, the efficiency of your team to succeed, and a target result that was not confirmed until the last minute. (That's you too Deb!)

Pressure is not something I work very well with. But I truly praise the Lord for giving me a wonderful team of people, nay, friends to help push me up every time I felt down.
The worst was when we got negative feedback... Thanks Deb for convincing me and helping me feel better,and not just give up. (Though it was just SO tempting)

I got to know many beautiful souls, and I got so much closer to many of them in my team.
Thanks for spending all your time and energy with me for the past one week.
Thanks for the encouraging smiles and the perseverance.
Thanks for all the ideas, both accepting and giving.
Thanks for sharing a little bit of yourselves with me. =)

It has been a super, super tiring week, and an even more super memorable one.
3 cheers for the Muffin Team!

And to those who haven't been here physically but have been keeping us in thought and prayers,
mom, dad, eeleen, whee, mel, sue, and all you others... A huge thank you too... =)
I wouldn't have managed to retain what little sanity I had left without your concern and care. Hugs.. Thanks for the prayers..

I'm so proud of the SSMP Muffin Baking Team 2009/2010!

Today, I just wanna

Because so many miracles happened...
1. 1625 muffins
2. results are out

3. just the fact that today's coming to an end
and well, for all He's done in my life!
(that's super a lot already...)

Dear God, let tomorrow be a better day.

Thankyouthankyouthankyou God!
=D

Tigress, rest in peace...

I miss you...

What I've learnt in the past 1 month

1. I never want to end up jobless and bored out of my wits after graduation. Even if it means being unpaid and unappreciated under-appreciated.

2. Real friendship lasts a lifetime. Even if it takes a few month/year break, it seems almost effortless to pick up where you left off. And they're always there for you.

3. Always be aware of priorities, all the things that matter in life. Because one can easily forget what's truly important in life and make so many wrong decisions that would cause much regret in the future.

4. I love my family. =)

5. Therefore, it super sucks when there's trouble within. And I realised that I deal with it very poorly. =S

6. God is the one solution that works for every type of problem. =) Too bad so many of us only turn to Him as a last resort...

7. And last but definitely not least,
My dad's a pretty sporting guy!





(It was rather dark - thus less embarrassing, when the local mall experienced a blackout)

Daddy, you're the best! Happy Fathers' Day!
(Mommy, you rawk too! I couldn't ever go clothes shopping with dad so don't be jealous...)

Well, I'm pretty sure there were other lessons learnt and other facts of life reinforced within this one month but well, these are pretty much the most prominent ones. =)

Labour Day

Malaysia's Labour day: May 1st every year.

The day we all celebrate every single working person for all the toils and effort they put in throughout the entire year by giving them a day off!

Joy, Joy!

But wait...
Not everyone gets the day off.
We still need SOME people working to tend to the multitudes who aren't, on this very special day.
Not fair, I hear you say? Perhaps so.

But ask any of these working-on-Labour-Day workers and they'd say they're doing it gladly. With mile-long smiles on their faces.
Because....
They want to show their appreciation to all those fellow union members who have suffered like them, working their backs off, from 9-5, every day?












Of course not.

It's because of double pay for working on a public holiday!

Besides, what's Labour Day as long as every Sunday's still an off-day.
=D

Accounts

= RUBBISH

Pretty Things All in a Row

~ Pretty things... =) ~

I was wondering... Why people place so much importance for things to look good.
You know?
"This book is dog eared. Take that one."
"That shirt is SO crumpled! Go change!"
Bla bla bla. Yada yada yada.

So yeah. Why is it so important?
Well, I could only come to one conclusion:
Nice, pretty things make us happy when we look at them.
=D

In conclusion, I'm all in support for all things good-looking!

Which then brings us to the Creator of all beautiful things...
Praise God!

Ulcer GONE!!!

Fairy tales = granted wishes

But in reality, wishes remain just that: wishes...
A specific feeling of desire towards something that is NOT yours.

Some people get lucky and find what they wish for.
Some people are blessed enough to receive more than what they wish for.
And some get something entirely different, and are wise enough to know that it is better than what they wished for.

Because sometimes, what you wish for may not be right, or acceptable, or even possible.
Makes you wonder why wish for something like that in the first place, right?

But hey, that's a unique trait associated to humans. Proving that I'm one too. =p

Yummy Love!

Go Away... PLEASE!

It is an open sore inside the oral cavity.
Once formed, it may be maintained by inflammation and/or secondary infection.
The ominous oral ulcer.

Symptoms

The symptoms preceding it may vary according to the cause of the ulcerative process.

Some oral ulcers may begin with a sharp stinging or burning sensation at the site of the future mouth ulcer. In a few days, they often progress to form a red spot or bump, followed by an open ulcer. Sometimes this takes a little bit longer, depending on the cause of the ulcer.

The oral ulcer appears as a white or yellow oval with an inflamed red border. Sometimes a white circle or halo around the lesion can be observed. The grey, white, or yellow coloured area within the red boundary is due to the formation of layers of fibrin, a protein involved in the clotting of blood. The ulcer, which itself is often extremely painful, especially when agitated, may be accompanied by a painful swelling of the lymph nodes below the jaw, which can be mistaken for toothache.

Causes

There are many processes which can lead to ulceration of the oral tissues. In some cases they are caused by an overreaction by the body's own immune system.

Factors that appear to provoke mouth ulcers include:

• stress
• fatigue
• illness
• injury from accidental biting
• hormonal changes
• menstruation
• sudden weight loss
• food allergies
• deficiencies in vitamin B12, iron and folic acid.

I think my current condition fulfills almost half of the listed factors.. =(

Treatment

Treatments based on antibiotics and steroids are reserved for severe cases, and should be used only under medical supervision.

Some doctors may also prescribe a local anaesthetic, such as lidocaine, for cases of multiple or severe oral ulcers.

Some people benefit from using the over-the-counter topical gel Bonjela, which contains choline salicylate -- choline salicylate is a local analgesic that helps to reduce the pain and inflammation associated with oral ulcers.

But personally, I recommend SANJIN Watermelon Frost in powder form. Significantly less painful than Bonjela and direct salt applications. =)

Much thanks to a friend who introduced this to me when I really couldn't take the pain anymore...

You are my Strength, You're all I need...

I need only think, “My foot is slipping,”

and Your love, O Lord, holds me up at once.

In the midst of worry and trouble

You console me and cheer me.

The Lord is my stronghold,

my God,

my rock of refuge.

Psalms 94:18-19, 22

The Lord is my strength, my shield;

in Him my heart trusts.

I have been helped and my heart exults,

with my song I give Him thanks.

Psalm 28:7

Brains and Beauty

Why do people associate beautiful people with stupidity?
Why is it that when I say "smart boy" I know in your mind, a picture of a nerd wearing 3-inch-think spectacles pops up?
Why are blonds assumed to be dumb and hence the existence of a million dumb blond jokes out there?

No, I don't really have the answers.
Hahaha.
Was just thinking about this after I stumbled across a site full of dumb blond jokes.
;P

http://www.jokesaboutblondes.net/ice_fishing.html

Easter's just around the corner!

The true reason we celebrate Easter is because
He is no longer on the cross, no longer buried in a cave, no longer in the grave;
but is risen. =)
Of course I'm not complaining that we always get to see cute bunnies around this season as well, although I really don't get the significance. Hehehe.

Happy EASTER!
Very much in advance..

UNappreciated, UNwelcomed

There are some things in the world that just turns me off faster than you can say well,
"what a turn off".
I have always liked to think of myself as a cheerful, ever smiling, bundle of joy but hey, even joy-filled bundles have nerves susceptible to certain irritable prodding.

Me, I cannot stand it when:
I try to help and get pushed aside.
What's the deal? I was just trying to be a kind soul making your life easier but there you go and spoil my mood.
Warning: To all people who really prefer to do some things alone, PLEASE tell any kind thoughtful interferer who only wanted to help to go away POLITELY. Do us all a favour and not contribute to another scowl on this smile-deprived world we live in.
Thank you.

A VERY hot afternoon...

insecurities

they say if you love something, let it go.
and if it comes back to you, you know it's yours...

but what if i know that it was never meant for me in the first place?
i'm not willing to let go because i'm afraid it won't come back
should i just have a little faith?

what should i do?
.......................................

but always, at the end of the day,
you help me believe that things will turn out okay
no matter what.

Bliss

One week home was rejuvenating.
But being back with you has been absolutely wonderful!

Of course the fights will start.
And voices will rise.
And tears may be shed.

But in the end, all that matters is how you make me feel.
So comfortable.
So happy.
Just by being with you.
=)

Stupid = ME

I'm sorry I hurt you over and over again.
I'm sorry I don't think.
I'm sorry I disappoint you so much.
Especially in the last few days...

I know 'sorry's are not enough.
But all I can do now is try to make you see I'll try to make it all stop.
Then maybe I won't have to hurt you so much anymore.
And not hurt myself.

I'm sorry...

Though you said you've heard enough, how else can I tell you I regret what I did?
It was NOT on purpose. It was an ACCIDENT. I didn't realise it was him there...

I know it hurts. I'm hurting too.

At least you can put all the blame on me.
And me? I feel the blame is on me too. So it hurts even more 'coz all I want to do is hit myself.

Forgive me... But I know things will be different now.

Where's my happy ending...

=(

on Top of the World with You... =)

Tribute to 2008

It's the new year.
Time to say goodbye to 2008 and look forward to the coming year but before that...
A little flashback to remember and be thankful for the blessings of love and lessons in life.

=)

January: School. Uni Friends. Teddy. La Noche de Espanol. PAP.
February: Valentine's. Chinese New Year. Mid-term exams.
March: More mid-terms. Birthdays.
April: Finals!
May: Home. Friends. Teddy-lessness.
June: Home Friends. Muffins. New room. New life.
July: Responsibilities. 21.
August: Family Day. Pann's visit. 6 months!
September: Life.
October: AIM Night.
November: Finals! Home...
December: Penang. KL. Lata Kinjang. Car sandwich.

But through it all, God and love abound. =)